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When I Walk

HD   14A Closed Captioning

Jason DaSilva

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About the Movie

I love New York. When I was younger, the city was my playground. You could find me on any given weekend catching brunch with a friend at a café, going to an East Village restaurant for dinner, and then hopping the subway, headed to a nightclub in Chelsea. But at age 25, nine years ago, I was told I had multiple sclerosis, and I saw my freedoms slowly vanish. All of a sudden, I found myself using a walker—now, a motorized chair—and planning daily activities with precise schedules and strategies for getting from one place to another, trying to maintain some semblance of the spontaneous city life I loved to live.I wanted to capture this transformative experience—becoming disabled—in WHEN I WALK because I hadn’t seen it done before, and people need to see how a degenerative disease impacts the lives of those living with it. The first scene in the film is of me on the beach with my family. I brought my camera along to film the get-together, but the footage we captured meant more than I could have imagined: I fell down, and couldn’t get back up. It was the very first time my MS made something in my life go completely awry, made itself visible and impossible to ignore. What was supposed to be a nice family vacation turned into the inciting incident. Soon after, and encouraged by my family, I chose to not ignore my MS but to turn my camera on it instead. I had made films all my life, so making a film about the progression of the disease seemed a natural way for me to process the journey.Documentarians often want to build trust and acceptance with their subjects. Being that I was the subject of my own film, and that I didn’t yet have that acceptance of myself, the filmmaking was arduous at first. There was always the internal struggle of putting myself on camera and deciding how much of myself I wanted to reveal. As I got worse and worse, reviewing the footage became emotionally difficult and physically draining. Living your life in the present while also reflecting upon it creatively, actively editing it and putting the pieces together in real time, put me in a psychological feedback loop that was tricky to negotiate. Every night after filming and editing, I would have dreams of being able to walk; then I’d wake up unable move and start the process of filmmaking all over again.Also difficult was being forced to hand the camera over to my brother, my mother, my filmmaker friends, and my non-filmmaker friends. This was partly because of my MS (my vision was getting worse), but also because being in the shot meant that I couldn’t capture it myself. This was perhaps the most frustrating part of making this film. I used to have total control over the camera and I was a meticulous shooter, so you can imagine the torture that was trying to give on-the-fly lessons in visual composition and camera exposure to my mother! The beautiful cinematography of my past was sacrificed, and my priority became capturing emotion. I found a new love for the expression of emotion, the subtlety of story, and capturing quietly compelling moments of human experience.I discovered that and other new loves since we began filming WHEN I WALK. And while I miss the incredible spontaneity and unlimited access to the city I had—and am developing ways to make that more of a possibility for those with mobility challenges through AXS Map—my diagnosis was not the end of the world. Instead, and with a bit of determination, it has proven to be a new way for me to see and be in the world. This was the voice and heart that emerged in the film, almost more through its own will than mine. As director, my role was to foster that spirit, to learn to adapt, and enjoy the ride.—Jason DaSilva, Director

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Rotten Tomatoes Movie Reviews

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88%
  • Reviews Counted: 17
  • Fresh: 15
  • Rotten: 2
  • Average Rating: 7.8/10

Top Critics' Reviews

Fresh: Mr. DaSilva's experience behind a camera shows in his brisk pacing, clear narrative structure and the awareness that a story of sickness needs lighthearted distractions. – Jeannette Catsoulis, New York Times, Oct 24, 2013

Fresh: A likable, intimate documentary kept from being too grim by the leads' good-humored personalities ... – Dennis Harvey, Variety, Jan 29, 2013

Fresh: By any measure, "When I Walk" is extraordinarily accomplished, poignant, and wise. – Inkoo Kang, Los Angeles Times, Oct 31, 2013

Fresh: Skilled direction and an indomitable spirit make a filmmaker's personal journey with multiple sclerosis inspiring without being maudlin. – James Greenberg, Hollywood Reporter, Oct 21, 2013

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Customer Reviews

Story of my Life 💔

Although NO ONE would ever in a million years want to relate to this documentary (or that of Jason's struggles & progression with Multiple Sclerosis) this story hit home for me! I watched someone else's struggle with the same/similar thins I myself struggle daily with. I realized I wasn't alone. That I wasn't crazy or the only one I knew with this rapidly progressive disease course! And that this type of MS (Primary Progressive Multiple Sclerosis) that the public knows so little about, could now be used to help my family and friends understand THIS TYPE OF MS.
Since RRMS (relapsing remitting multiple sclerosis) makes up 85% of those diagnosed with MS, very few people are educated about PPMS (even people with RRMS often don't know much, if anything, about the difference between the two types of MS). This film changes that! And as a woman with Malignant (fast progressing -Primary Progressive Multiple Sclerosis - also known as Marburg Variant MS making up only 3-5% of those diagnosed with MS), I am beyond grateful for Jason's candour and bravery displayed in making this very eye opening, educational film.
PPMS has NO medications or treatments to slow down, correct, or even relieve our symptoms. Luckily, RRMS has 15-20 (and climbing) steroids, medicine, treatment options available to essentially stop or at least slow down symptoms and progressions. We are not as fortunate and are stuck inside our bodies with no hope of stopping/slowing down symptoms and disabilities as they start. & progress.
I'm very thankful for this film and for the fact that Jason in no way "sugar coated it".

Please watch this documentary and educate yourselves on this horrible, life stealing disease!
I often find myself saying, " I'm Alive, but I'm far from Living!! 💔", and that's the best way of me describing what it's like having PPMS.
Thank you for the tools to inform & bring real awareness, Jason!

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