By Ambivalently Yours
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Welcome to Rebelliously Tiny, a podcast about the subtle emotions that draw us together. For the last five years, artist Ambivalently Yours has been exploring her ambivalence and feminist questions by posting pink drawings on her Tumblr blog. Eventually, people started responding to the work by sharing their personal stories and asking her for advice, often anonymously. Since Ambivalently Yours felt in no way qualified to tell anyone what to do, she began answering these messages with ambivalent drawings. Today, she has over 1000 messages waiting in her inbox, and has decided to ask for a little help responding to them. Each episode of this podcast will focus on one question, which Ambivalently Yours will discuss with someone she admires and trusts. Their goal will not be to provide answers, but to explore the tender emotions we are often told are unimportant, while highlighting the value of talking to each other instead of about each other. Each episode will also feature a drawing inspired by both the initial question and the conversation it sparked. In a world that teaches us that strength is loud, harsh and masculine, this is a place for those of us whose struggle is both impossibly large and rebelliously tiny.
||ExplicitEpisode 14: Ryan & Bejal||*Content Warning: this episode is about growing up. We touch on some of the heartaches and struggles that go along with growing up in a society that sees you as other. The discussion contains some harsh language. Here’s the question that inspired this week’s episode (the message has been slightly altered to preserve anonymity): Do you ever get into one of those moods where you feel like changing everything about yourself? Style, personality, everything. I guess I just feel like I've outgrown it all and it isn't who I am anymore. The problem is, I'm worried about how people will react if I change too much, and I'm not sure I know how to change. How do we change? When do we change? Does it happen quickly or does it take forever? How much of how we look on the outside is reflective of how we feel on the inside? This episode is all about change, so we decided to make a change of our own and put co-producer Hannah in the driver’s seat. To answer our question we talk to Ryan and Bejal, two of Hannah’s dear friends, about what it means to change. Both of our guests share their stories and discuss the distinctions and similarities of their experiences with queerness and identity. We discuss the uncomfortable and sometimes embarrassing paths to becoming the most honest versions of who we are, and we talk about the struggle of being different in a world that craves sameness. A podcast by Ambivalently Yours Co-produced, edited and narrated by Hannah McCasland Recorded at Oboro Artist-Run Center in Montreal Technical support: Stéphane Claude Music: Greg Barkley||12/5/2018||Free||View in iTunes|
||ExplicitEPISODE 13: JULIE||*Content Warning: this episode deals with issues of violence against women, stalking, online harassment, and contains harsh language. Here’s the question that inspired this week’s episode (the message has been slightly altered to preserve anonymity): I have been undecided all my life about feminism and it's weird because I’m a girl and I have very strong opinions about the issues. But when I see posts online about feminism that I don't quite agree with and all the arguments and the fights of feminists against other feminists, i rethink it. Do i really want to be a feminist? A lot of us learn about, explore, and engage with feminism online. We’ve discussed in many episodes of Rebelliously Tiny how the internet can make learning about feminism more accessible. But the internet can also be host to hurtful, harmful interactions where call out culture grows and spreads, sometimes out of control. Anonymous users starting fights just because, trolls, harassment… But problems within activist movements do not rely solely on the anonymity and distance of sitting behind a screen. Sometimes the aggression comes from within our own feminist circles, and the nuance between right and wrong or ally and enemy becomes more painful and difficult to sort through. In this episode, we talk to women’s rights advocate and public educator Julie S. Lalonde and together we take a look at some of the conflicts that exists within feminism, we reflect on all of our mixed feelings and we discuss how we can work on together to find alternative ways of communicating when we disagree. Learn more about Julie’s work at yellowmanteau.com or @JulieSLalonde on Twitter and @yellowmanteau on IG. To learn more about the Outside of the Shadows project visit outsideoftheshadows.ca or @outsideoftheshadowsproject on IG A podcast by Ambivalently Yours Co-produced by Hannah McCasland Recorded at Oboro Artist-Run Center in Montreal Technical support: Stéphane Claude Music: Greg Barkley||10/17/2018||Free||View in iTunes|
||ExplicitEPISODE 12: SUNNY||*Content warning: this episode deals with issues of racism, body shaming, femme phobia and contains some harsh language. Here’s the question that inspired this week’s episode: "I look way older than others my age because I'm more curvy. I'm also biracial, so my skin is more light brown and I’ve got curls. I like pink, I like dresses. mainly boys have called me things like "stupid fat black b*tch" as soon as I stood up for myself and some of my friends who claim themselves as feminists tell me that I can't really be a feminist because of my obsession for girly things. although i act like it doesn't, it does hurt me." This week’s episode is dedicated to the fangirl living inside of each of us. The question we respond to deals with the struggle of loving “girly” things like the colour pink and dresses, fangirling over pop culture, stumbling through activism, and learning to be a feminist… a few of our favourite things. To work through this question, we reach out to AY’s friend Sunny, a blogger based in Australia. Despite the 14 hour time difference and grainy Skype connection, we got to hear Sunny share some wisdom about the role of joy in activism, the importance of respecting, rather than belittling, and how to build inclusive activist movements by prioritizing diverse perspectives. A podcast by Ambivalently Yours Co-produced by Hannah McCasland Recorded at Oboro Arist-Run Center in Montreal Technical support: Stéphane Claude Music: Greg Barkley||9/5/2018||Free||View in iTunes|
||CleanEpisode 11: Hannah & AY||When we set out to create a podcast, we didn’t have much (okay, any) experience in podcast making. We had a few goals and ideas, we found inspiration in other podcasts we admired, and we relied on support from the amazing Oboro artist-run center in Montreal. Mostly, we had a lot of feelings: a desire to talk about and give time and attention to things belittled or demeaned in the mainstream, tenderness towards the questions sent to AY online, feminist fuelled frustrations. In this first episode from the next series of Rebelliously Tiny, we reflect on Season 1, we share the process of creating a second season, talk about the challenges of our Kickstarter campaign, and we discuss our own passions and careers. Use this episode to catch up with us and learn more about Rebelliously Tiny, or even to hear a few tips on starting a creative project from scratch with limited resources and funds. In keeping with our formula from last season, each episode explores a question received by AY on social media: “I'm about to finish a degree in writing, and I'm struggling with my next step. What I really want to do is publish novels, but I worry that it won't pay the bills (and I guess it never might). I'm worried that if I don't get into a field related to my degree, I will never use it. Family are putting on the pressure to just get any job, get money coming in. What should I do?” A podcast by Ambivalently Yours Co-produced by Hannah McCasland Recorded at Oboro Arist-Run Center in Montreal Technical support: Stéphane Claude Music: Greg Barkley||8/15/2018||Free||View in iTunes|
||ExplicitEpisode 10: Coming Out (Bonus Episode)||Stories about coming out.||7/18/2018||Free||View in iTunes|
||CleanWe Need Your Help for Season 2!||We Need Your Help for Season 2!||10/23/2017||Free||View in iTunes|
||CleanEpisode 9: Johanne||Episode 9: Johanne||8/9/2017||Free||View in iTunes|
||CleanEpisode 8: Armando, Michaël & Graeme||Episode 8: Armando, Michaël & Graeme||8/2/2017||Free||View in iTunes|
||CleanEpisode 7: Laura||Episode 7: Laura||7/26/2017||Free||View in iTunes|
||CleanEpisode 6: Crickett||Episode 6: Crickett||7/19/2017||Free||View in iTunes|
||CleanEpisode 5: Noé||Episode 5: Noé||7/5/2017||Free||View in iTunes|
||CleanEpisode 4: Celia||Episode 4: Celia||6/28/2017||Free||View in iTunes|
||CleanEpisode 3: Zhi Xi||Episode 3: Zhi Xi||6/21/2017||Free||View in iTunes|
||CleanEpisode 2: Lux||Episode 2: Lux||6/14/2017||Free||View in iTunes|
||CleanEpisode 1: Hannah||Episode 1: Hannah||6/7/2017||Free||View in iTunes|
||CleanWelcome to Rebelliously Tiny||Welcome to Rebelliously Tiny: the teaser episode||5/27/2017||Free||View in iTunes|
This podcast is very calming but also intellectually challenging. It’s my new favourite form of “self care”.
We need more podcasts like this one - beautifully told stories in a respectful and open way. Ambivalently Yours has been a favorite of mine for many years now. Delighted to follow them on a new platform. Great job! More please! <3
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This is a wonderful podcast from feminist artist Ambivalently Yours. On each episode she brings on guests to talk about the advice questions she receives. The conversations around the advice are empathetic, critical, and thought-provoking. This podcast would be a great introduction for young people about feminism.