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Blowing My Cover

My Life as a CIA Spy

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Call me naïve, but when I was a girl-watching James Bond and devouring Harriet the Spy-all I wanted was to grow up to be a spy. Unlike most kids, I didn't lose my secret-agent aspirations. So as a bright-eyed, idealistic college grad, I sent my resume to the CIA.
Getting in was a story in itself. I peed in more cups than you could imagine, and was nearly condemned as a sexual deviant by the staff psychologist. My roommates were getting freaked out by government investigators lurking around, asking questions about my past.

Finally, the CIA was training me to crash cars into barriers at 60 mph. Jump out of airplanes with cargo attached to my body. Survive interrogation, travel in alias, lose a tail. One thing they didn't teach us was how to date a guy while lying to him about what you do for a living. That I had to figure out for myself.
Then I was posted overseas. And that's when the real fun began.

From Publishers Weekly

Dec 20, 2004 – When Harvard grad Moran entered CIA training in her late 20s, her expectations had more to do with Harriet the Spy and James Bond than with drudge work or service; the reality, as she represents it in this memoir of her training and case work, was a sexist environment filled with career-oriented, shallow people, "an elaborate game for men who'd never really grown up." Beginning in 1998 as a case officer in Macedonia, Moran finds the work dull and admittedly achieves little of note in her brief career; smooth writing and wit regarding the humdrum mechanics of spookdom from having her alias's credit card rejected for nonpayment to the thousands of little lies she must invent and remember carry the book. Her apprehension about preying on people from cash-poor economies with bribes is easily overcome; a boyfriend in Bulgaria helps ease her loneliness. During the events of 9/11 neither she nor her field boss have any idea what is going on ("We worked for the CIA for chrissake. Shouldn't we have known?"). Though Moran is a likable spy, the wait for significant insights or breakthroughs goes mostly unrewarded for writer and reader alike. Expressing disillusionment with the U.S. invasion of Iraq, frustration with excessive bureaucracy and desire for a more fulfilling personal life, Moran simply quits one day.

Customer Reviews


I found this book, one of many great I've read about the Agency's backward ways, to be maddening.

From the get go the author goes all the way to getting the job and the wants to come back in a year. Then she finally comes back to take the job and is perplexed as to why she can't date foreigners? And then, the icing on the cake, she didn't realize being a case officer is a lonely job. Honestly, how dumb are you? Do you realize how much tax payer time you wasted because you didn't do one ounce of research before trying to fulfill your childhood dream of being sneaky?

Congratulations on leaving, hopefully HQ will fill your slot with a person that wont be so wishy washy and might actually bring in some FI worth reading.

Whenever someone leaves the Agency the whole place says "they were never a good officer" which lots of time is bogus but in this case the Agency, an organization with a lot of challenges, is better off.

Boring and annoying. Read all the other books.

What in the world were they thinking?

One would hope that the CIA screening process would be sophisticated enough to screen out a lonely, lovesick woman who clearly was unsuited for the lifestyle required to be a successful CIA agent. But obviously not. She wasted not only part of her life, but also the agency's resources so this elitist who thought it would be neat to be a spy could have a shot at it. I have known several highly professional C/Os. She is self-admittedly far below their caliber in terms of character and sense of purpose. With all of that, the book was oddly compelling, but also equally disgusting. Bottom line, improve the screening process to weed out brittle, self-centered losers like this one.

Great read

Lindsay Moran offers a great insight into what one might expect to happen as a CIA officer. She describes training, attitudes, life and her overseas mission from the perspective of a real human being. From her view, being a c/o at the CIA isn't about gadgets and secrecy but rather about surveillance and recruitment. Her writing style is great, light and funny. I guarantee you will enjoy reading it. You might not agree with her views, but you can't deny the factual and descriptive manner in which the book was written.
I wish they'd made a movie out of it.
I read it three times and will remain one of my favorite reads.

Blowing My Cover
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  • Available on iPhone, iPad, iPod touch, and Mac.
  • Category: Biographies & Memoirs
  • Published: Dec 29, 2004
  • Publisher: Penguin Publishing Group
  • Seller: Penguin Group (USA) Inc.
  • Print Length: 304 Pages
  • Language: English
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