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For This Life Only

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A young man struggles to move forward after the death of his twin brother in this “poignant and powerful” (Kirkus Reviews) coming-of-age tale about loss, redemption, love, and the moment you begin to see the world differently.

Three minutes.

Jacob Palmer died for three life-changing minutes.

And when he woke up, nothing was the same. Elijah, his twin brother, is dead, and his family is broken. Jace’s planned future is crushed, along with his pitching arm. Everyone keeps telling him that Eli’s in a better place, but Jace isn’t so sure. Because in those three minutes, there was nothing.

Overwhelmed by guilt and doubt, Jace struggles to adjust to this new version of the world, one without his brother, one without the certainties he once relied on. And then Thera comes into his life.

She’s the last girl he should be turning to for help.

But she’s also the first person to truly see him.

From Publishers Weekly

Aug 22, 2016 – When the twin sons of a preacher die in a car wreck, only one is revived. Now the life that Jacob Palmer knew has been extinguished, along with his hopes of a baseball scholarship. As his family implodes, Jacob grapples with his parents' religious devotion, painfully aware of the nothingness he felt in the moments before he was resuscitated, and tries to uncover brother Eli's final secret. In a striking meditation on grief, blame, fate, and losing one's faith, Kade (The Ghost and the Goth) exposes the layers of Jacob's loss from numerous angles, including the fact that Eli was always the "good twin," dutifully responding the night Jacob called for a ride. In a physical education class for "broken and damaged people," Jacob finds a kindred spirit in Thera, whom Eli had been tutoring. At the heart of Kade's reflective story is a philosophical tug of war between right and wrong, knowing the difference, and the relief that can be found in making a choice even when there are no clear answers. Ages 14 up.
For This Life Only
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  • $8.99
  • Level: Grades 9 and Above
  • Available on iPhone, iPad, iPod touch, and Mac.
  • Category: Coming of Age
  • Published: Aug 30, 2016
  • Publisher: Simon & Schuster Books for Young Readers
  • Print Length: 320 Pages
  • Language: English
  • Requirements: This book can only be viewed on an iOS device with Apple Books on iOS 12 or later, iBooks 1.3.1 or later and iOS 4.3.3 or later, or a Mac with iBooks 1.0 or later and OS X 10.9 or later.

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