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Gastien: The Cost of the Dream

Book 1, The Gastien Series

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Gastien has dreams far bigger than a mere peasant has a right to. When he flees the farm for Paris, the late nineteenth century bohemian era is in full swing. Color has always called to him, beseeching him to capture it on canvas and show people a new way of seeing things. His father belittled his dream of being an artist and tried to beat him into giving it up. The dream wouldn't die, but Gastien would have had he not left.

He also yearns to become a great lover. After the years of anguish he has endured at the hand of his father, it would be heaven to feel pleasure instead of pain.

However, the city of Paris has a ruthless agenda. Unless a man has money and connections, Paris unfeelingly crushes dreams and destroys souls. With neither of the required assets, Gastien faces living in alleys, digging in trash bins for food, and sleeping where a man is often killed for his threadbare blanket.

Left with only his dreams, Gastien stubbornly pushes on. He vows that absolutely nothing will stop him, not yet realizing what keeping that vow might mean. Sometimes the "impossible" is possible - but the cost can be extremely high.

This historical fiction novel is book 1 of a 5 book drama/family saga for adults (The Gastien Series). As such, it contains adult themes and graphic scenes. Each book can stand on its own, but is most compelling read in order.

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Gastien: The Cost of the Dream

While this book is well written, and very accurately depicts homelessness and poverty, nothing in the description prepares you for the depravity graphically depicted in this book! Information on the nature of the content, specifically homosexual conduct should be included in the very first paragraph--"explicit adult content" does not address this issue adequately!


Pretty good writer. The homophobia throughout put me off. Perhaps some gays are predatory, but not to the extent that the author depicts it in this book.
The idea that we get to use and abuse others for our own dreams, which we of course deem far more worthy than other people's dreams, is reprehensible. I will not read another of her books.

This is not a homphobic story

I am the author and don't want to rate my own book, but have no choice if I want to comment, as I can't submit a comment without rating the book. Please ignore the rating (obviously I'm not going to give myself any rating but 5 star as I don't want to lower the rating readers give me).I want to address the review saying I am homophobic. I have many, many gay friends. Additionally,l every one of my books includes either side characters or main characters that are either gay or lesbian.

Saying one can only show ANY type of person in one way is what is homophobic. The fact that in this book some gay men happen to be villians does not make me or this story homophobic. In fact, moving forward in the series there are many gay or lesbian people who are shown in a positive light, and the last book has a gay main character and is his love story. I enjoy writing about all kinds of people, and hope most readers understand all walks of life can harobr both kind and evil people.

Thank you. I just want readers to know I write about the sublime joy and bitter tragedy of being human. That insludes straight and LGBT in both good and bad light.

Gastien: The Cost of the Dream
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  • Category: Historical
  • Published: May 05, 2014
  • Publisher: Caddy Rowland
  • Seller: Draft2Digital, LLC
  • Print Length: 602 Pages
  • Language: English
  • Series: Book 1, The Gastien Series
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