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I have been staring at her for three months. Watching her. Memorizing her.

For ninety-two days, I’ve looked into those lifeless green eyes.

And for ninety-two days she has inspired me in ways I never knew possible. A muse, unbeknownst to her. Motivating me. Encouraging my darkest desires.

I’m a man who knows what he wants. And what I want is the beautiful and broken Holland Howard.

My name is Jensen Payne—photographer, autocrat, lecher, Scopophiliac. I am who I am and I will not—cannot—change.

*This is a stand-alone, erotic romance. Due to strong sexual situations and harsh language, it is recommended for readers 18+ only.

WARNING: This book contains possible emotional triggers.

Customer Reviews

3 hard stars for Cheryl's first attempt at an erotic story.

Unfortunately, the beginning brings back reminders from another story I read about a photographer obsessed with taking pictures of naked women during climax. I do not have an in depth connection with the characters yet. The layers of the grief have been outlined, but the way Holland just up and left, left me feeling confused. I needed closure. I needed her to react with words and not actions. While I love stories about sex and men who are capable of awakening something deep inside of us that was lost-feeling. I still feel unattached to the story. I feel like I'm going through the motions.
The story needs to move into another direction. I wish the story would progress away from the sex. Some sex is good but when seventy-five percent of the story is based on it, it becomes mundane.
Cheryl has made her point that Holland is using sex to escape dealing with her feelings.
I feel like the story finally began when Holland saw Jensen's father at the DMV. I became enthralled in the story from this point on. The story took too long to make its point but once it did I was hooked.

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  • $2.99
  • Available on iPhone, iPad, iPod touch, and Mac.
  • Category: Erotica
  • Published: Mar 20, 2015
  • Publisher: Cheryl McIntyre
  • Seller: Smashwords, Inc.
  • Print Length: 196 Pages
  • Language: English
  • Requirements: This book can only be viewed on an iOS device with Apple Books on iOS 12 or later, iBooks 1.3.1 or later and iOS 4.3.3 or later, or a Mac with iBooks 1.0 or later and OS X 10.9 or later.

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