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Part of the Spires universe, Spires

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Alfie Bell is . . . fine. He’s got a six-figure salary, a penthouse in Canary Wharf, the car he swore he’d buy when he was eighteen, and a bunch of fancy London friends.

It’s rough, though, going back to South Shields now that they all know he’s a fully paid-up pansy. It’s the last place he’s expecting to pull. But Fen’s gorgeous, with his pink-tipped hair and hipster glasses, full of the sort of courage Alfie’s never had. It should be a one-night thing, but Alfie hasn't met anyone like Fen before.

Except he has. At school, when Alfie was everything he was supposed to be, and Fen was the stubborn little gay boy who wouldn’t keep his head down. And now it’s a proper mess: Fen might have slept with Alfie, but he’ll probably never forgive him, and Fen’s got all this other stuff going on anyway, with his mam and her flower shop and the life he left down south.

Alfie just wants to make it right. But how can he, when all they’ve got in common is the nowhere town they both ran away from.


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From Publishers Weekly

Oct 31, 2016 – Hall's skilled hand with men's emotional realms comes through in the sweetly optimistic, redemptive third standalone in his Spires contemporary gay romance series (after For Real), in which vulnerability takes center stage and difficult history dances with the glimmer of opportunity. London investment banker Alfie Bell abruptly comes out at his best friend's wedding in the small town of South Shields, where he grew up. He then picks up Fen, a beautiful, bitter man with pink-tipped hair at the local bar, and discovers after their encounter that Fen is actually the boy Alfie bullied all through school. Fen tries to keep Alfie at arm's length as he works through his self-hatred via letters to his late mother, whose flower shop he now runs, while Alfie seeks forgiveness from both Fen and himself as he makes his first attempts to impress someone he's truly interested in. Hall's sex scenes are a heady mix of hot play-by-play, breathy exhilaration, emotional discovery, and endearing awkwardness. The book goes on longer than the plot deserves, but Alfie and Fen are so delightful together that readers probably won't mind.

Customer Reviews

Flawed and Beautiful

4.5 stars

I love the complexity of Alfie and Fen and how they don’t quite fit into the molds for any characters I’ve read before. The bully turned lover has been done before, but this story doesn’t start with the bullying so we aren’t in that frame of mind from the beginning. We have a chance to really get to know who they are as adults.
Fen is having a difficult time moving past a major loss and figuring out which direction he wants to take his life. Besides that he seems to be a pretty well adjusted individual. He knows what he likes, and he knows his self-worth.
Alfie looks like he has life majorly handled on the outside, but really he is having the hardest time accepting himself. He craves to fall in love and settle down. If it isn’t investment banking, he’s basically lost. Real life is hard.
Both guys are really just what the other needs. I loved their courtship. It doesn’t follow any pattern. While they got to really know and appreciate each other, I did also. They have these weird quirks and super sweet little bits about them.
Pansies is romantic, sexy, sad and funny. There isn’t a lot of outside action. The book is about these two men including their emotions and dialogue. It has erotic scenes and inspiring parts. For me it was a powerful love story. I felt it deeply.

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  • Available on iPhone, iPad, iPod touch, and Mac.
  • Category: Contemporary
  • Published: Oct 10, 2016
  • Publisher: Riptide Publishing
  • Seller: Riptide Publishing
  • Print Length: 405 Pages
  • Language: English
  • Series: Part of the Spires universe, Spires
  • Requirements: To view this book, you must have an iOS device with iBooks 1.3.1 or later and iOS 4.3.3 or later, or a Mac with iBooks 1.0 or later and OS X 10.9 or later.

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