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This is a story based on a true experience, we share an uplifting spiritual encounter, as Josie a young frustrated women relaxes into involuntary meditation and faces her true reality, Her consciousness.
Embarking on a vivid mental journey going “ Beyond her Tears” Josie now twenty five and still a virgin accesses her life in relation to her deceased father, her separated mother and her frustrated boyfriend, Dave.
Her egoic mental activity of her mixed feelings, her wanting, her need to be loved and her frigidity became overwhelming, and she wanted to die.
Feeling lonely and unhappy she indulges herself in a well of emotional tears and self-pity, with the help of her music and the dim moving light of a candle she retreats into the realms of her subconscious and embarks on a probable imaginary journey into a strange but realistic world of emotional bondage.
As the tears flush out her emotive past, she has to face and accept the traumas of this exposure; she challenges this darker side of herself and identifies her neurosis.
Needing to rest after a long and strenuous mental battle with her imaginary hysteria, she creates a heavenly mental garden through the medium of her Father’s bright and colourful floral painting. Sensing this garden all around her she absorbs the light and colour into her conscience and so finds inner peace and tranquillity in what she realises is her own centre, revealing her true self within her own consciousness. It is there that she meets her father and absorbs the spiritual uplifting message he appears to convey to her.
Realising that death is only a physical process she becomes aware that her reality is her true consciousness, and her own personnel God.
As we follow Josie we again share her experiences as she comes to terms with the spiritual awakening of her consciousness.
And continue with the journey as Josie starts to rebuild her relationships. Josie now in a state of transition, acutely aware of her changing feelings towards her relationships with family, friends, life and now God!
Having come to terms with her new sense of conscious freedom, she now has to face her own reality. Now close to her new found freedom and with deep awareness of her own past neurosis She no longer needs to judge herself - her mother, Dave , George or others.
She develops a new and closer relationship with her mother which then helps them both to accept and understand the trauma's of the past years.
We expand and develops the characters and lives of her mother, George and father up to the fathers fatal accident at sea.
George, her mother’s lover, is shown to have played a major part in the forming of Josie’s childhood character and how all three feel the effect of the father’s absence and how it changes and influences the family’s future, leading to the deeper personal crisis which Josie had to face through her tears in the first part of the story. As the relationship with her Mother grows and changes, Josie asks her to move back into the original home and they both become supportive to each other. Josie has a chance meeting with Dave and the old feelings return, a passionate love affair develops fulfilling her physical needs and finally laying the ghost of her father. As Dave reappears on the scene he has a tough time convincing Josie’s Mother that his intentions are honourable, a long courtship prevails and Dave and Josie eventually marry.